To the man that walked out of my life

You never appreciated me.

Nothing that I did for you, the big things for the little things

 

You had everyone fooled. You made everyone think that you were a great person. Treated me like I was your girl, your princess, but behind closed doors it was different. It was all a fake.

See the thing is… I believed you… Every time I looked at you when you smiled, or you laughed or you were just having a general conversation with someone I fell in love all over again. Every moment. And I believed for all those years that’s how you felt also. But I was wrong.

I will always love you, you will always be my first true love but that’s something I will never forgive you for. I will never forgive you for just running out of my life because you “thought”  you didn’t love me anymore. And that’s because you didn’t me the time of the day. You wouldn’t give the attention and the time to show you how much of an amazing person i truly was and still am to this day.

I hope one day you realize this. I hope one day when no girl can deal with your bullshit, you will look back and realized how much I really had to offer. I offered you so much. I loved you more than i loved myself…

And maybe that was the problem… I don’t know. I’ll never know why you fell out of love with me. But one thing i do know is your missing out…

 

 

Tuesday’s Weekly Wrap Up on Tuesday?!

I can’t wait to make this! Perfect for fall

Chelseas Creative Crochet

Yes everyone that’s right, I got my progress report up on the actual day it’s due. My little Violet was picked up early this morning so now I have a little more time to get things done today. Not that I’ve done a significant amount of crafting this week but still. We did try a rock candy experiment. So far that hasn’t done anything exciting but I’ll keep you all in the loop. I hope everyone had a fun, safe 4th of July, Vi and I spent it with my family at the bay and it was so much fun. Hubby had to work. 😦

Now on to what we all really want to know about. The yarny stuff.

I’m going to start with an FO today because I’m sure you’ll notice it missing from the WIPS category. I finished my Coraline in the Wine Country Shawl by Simply Collectible

View original post 305 more words

Confession

I think that if I confess something I might actually be able to change it because I have said it.

Me have a problem. When I’m sad,angry, or bored I eat. And I can’t help it.

I confess that I need to lose weight. I need to do it for me and no one else.

Crochet crochet crochet!

I need a little help here. I just found out that I am going to be a aunt! My nephew to be. His mother loves batman and I wanted to crochet him a batman blanket. I can not find any patterns online. The only thing I have found is a graph… But i don’t know to go with that. Help me! Someone!

Now I’m A Warrior

Demi Lovatos song Warrior hit that spot.

All her music means something. All of her music is true.

I use this blog to just be true to who I am without my friends and family judging me.

It scares me to tell people who i really used to be and what i really went through as a teen.

When I was a junior in high school my parents separated for the 4th time.

That time was the hardest, both my mom and dad were both my bestfriends.

So I dealt with it differently. I didn’t shove myself in my room everyday and just cry. I needed and found an escape.

My escape was drugs.

It started because i was hanging out with the wrong group of people.

First it was weed than it turned into pills.

I’m not going to lie i was addicting.

It went on for a few years then i met someone.

Someone who changed my life for the better.

And its been almost 4 years sense that person changed me.

I love him. Hes the love of my life and my savior.

But anyways my birthday is coming up soon and i decided to get I’m a warrior tattooed on my shoulder.

I chose that quote because i feel like i am a warrior. I scruggled in life and it was hard. Everything was hard and life was hard but i got through it. I am a better person today. I love who i am today.

And i know who ever is reading this is probably thinking she is a horrible writer. But i don’t care. Im putting this out there for people to know that when times get hard and life might seem like its falling apart, it will always get better. But you have to want it to get better. You have to fight for it.

Can someone tell what color this is?? (Hair dye)

Okay, I really like this color and am try to get it! I have looked around and I can not seem to find a color that matches this, I know I can mix colors together but don’t know what colors to mix! Can some one please help me!

Only do it if you are ready.

Sometimes people rush into things way to fast.
Sometimes people get talked into things that they aren’t ready for.
Sometimes people make choices that they wish they didn’t make.
Where I’m getting at is…
Don’t make choices unless your ready for them.
Sit there and think about it.
Make the right choice.

Present for boyfriend ideas??

Well… March 1st is my 3 year anniversary with my boyfriend.
I got him a promise ring, which is beautiful!
I got him a hoodie and a new shirt.
I plan on getting him a new hat and come cologne!
I need more ideas those!
I owe it to him!
He got me a ps3 for vday!
Help please!

Trying to shed some pounds, help me!

Okay, okay, okay.

I never thought i would be coming to my blog for this but i need some help!

Ive been trying to shed some pounds and it has been working but! I have a problem .

I HATE HATE HATE eating breakfast in the morning, i never seem to find time to make myself some eggs.

So i was thinking about getting some whey protein and making some shakes in the morning for breakfast!

My brother used to be on the adkins diet and would drink these in the morning and he said they filled him up!

Im just looking for some healthy protein shakes to drink for breakfast!

HELP HELP HELP PLEASE!

It has been a Very long time.

Well lets just start off with….

My life has finally came through.

I have a job, I’m only busing tables but I am making Pretty good money.

Its a start somewhere.

I am finally going to start driving.

Don’t get me wrong, in the back of my head I am still so scared to do it.

Because in life you always have to conquer a fear, I could do it for thunder and lighting so i think i can do it for this.

I am tired of depending on people to take be back and forth to work.

It just feels so good to better yourself and be able to buy yourself things.